shot to the heart

Another thought I have been wondering about lately is how people look when they die by getting stabbed with a sword. You know how when the sword goes threw their stomach or whatever and the victim looks down and sees that he is going to die? and his eyes get all big and bulged out? and they are all surprised by what is happening?
Does that happen to everyone? Would it happen to me? I want to think that the last face I would be making in this life would be better than that.

as of late

Lately I have been thinking about what I would do if I were obnoxiously wealthy. And I have concluded that I would own me a servant. I would take my servant grocery shopping with me, and she would push the cart, and load the car up. My servant would also assist me as I cooked in the kitchen and clean up as we went. She would drive me places and I would just sit in the passenger seat and listen to music. My servant would aslo carry my planner and schedule things down for me, she would give me little reminders and messages. She would also carry my cell phone for me and screen all my calls, read me all my text messages. When I was bored she would play backgammon with me, or anything that I wanted to play. Oh my gosh, I would always have a racquet ball, or tennis partner to play with!!! Oh, life would be so wonderful with a servant.

steamboat arabia

While I am in Kansas City I am making my team visit a museum dedicated to the Steamboat Arabia, which sank, and for some reason was covered in mud and rediscovered later. I don't know much about it, but I am sure I will learn the whole story while I am there. I am so excited, I can't even wait! I love historical stuff! I may even read Huckleberry Finn on the plane or something, there is a steamboat in that book right?

Here is a little quote that I grabbed from the museums website: Unbelievable treasures and fascinating history await. Explore our museum and learn how the handsome steamer Arabia prospered on the rivers, perished in 1856 and was finally rediscovered 132 years later, precious cargo intact. This exhibit, in Kansas City, Mo, is many things: history, ingenuity, tragedy, adventure, perseverance, preservation and a tribute to the pioneer spirit.

This is Life! Come explore!

He he! "This is life!" I love that!

my new friends, the baggers

so I have been texting a lot lately with teenagers (which is really cool, I know, I love my life)... and this is something that really does bother me and I need to address it.
yeah
yah
yay
ya
yea
I hate when these are spelt and used wrong. It is so irritating to me. For example "ya" should never be used as "yea!"... and you should never use "ya" for "yeah"... my mind can't handle reading that garble.

it's JUNE!!!

Just so you all know, I may never leave home again. I am enjoying living with my parents so much. Free food, free rent... and my wonderful, big, new, nice bedroom. I love it! Provo feels so far away to me right now.
And as long as I have a little joy ride up to Salt Lake and back with Kaylene every once in awhile, I don't really need a social life.
Life is good, damn good.

DIET PEPSI

OH NO! I HAVE STARTED DRINKING AGAIN!

4 things that have ruined my night:

1. my ride home with georgiana, talking about politics. I can't ever word things the way I want to.
2. my desk is destroyed.
3. I drove all the way down the canyon road, towards my neighborhood at 1AM... and was turned around by some firetrucks because of a fallen utility pole. I had to drive back up and around through cedar hills.
4. my whole existence have been singing these words wrong:
The Funk Soul Brother, Check It Out Now
The Funk Soul Brother, Right About Now

I thought it went like this:
Right About Now, Funk's Your Brother
Check It Out Now, Funk's Your Brother

mission dreams

Every so often I dream of being on my mission again. This morning I dreamed that I was nearing the end of my mission and I didn't want to go home. Sister Ashby said that I could just pick another mission to go to.. and in my dream I choose to serve in the Radiohead Russian Mission.

What a mystical land that would be!

eeks

I am so busy.

the deck swing

All my crap is in the garage in boxes and bags and I can't find anything I need. And I can't bring it in and organize because my mom is re-doing the basement... and doesn't want my stuff in the way. I slept outside on the swing Mark brought over to the house. But I came in at like 5:30am not because I was cold, but because the swing is actually not that soft and I got a dead butt.

I am making Sam give me back my bed, because the one I came in and slept on was on a tilt, and I felt like I was going to roll off of it. I had to sleep real careful so I didn't end up rolling onto the floor.

later Provo

I secretly am excited to move back home. In fact, I am skipping out on Diegos right now because I want to pack up and get going. It will be a hard-working summer since I am working two jobs, but I think I am going to enjoy it.

Warm weather makes me pro-active. In the winter all I want to do is watch Smallvile DVDs with Kaylene...

I like working, and I will have two jobs that make me very happy and bring out different sides of me. Kohlers makes me happy because I see tons of people and interact with tons of people. And working at Horrocks Engineering will let me just listen to my music and sit and figure things out.

I had my interview with Horrocks today. The interview went wonderfully well... I always have such laid back interviews, I don't think I have ever had a formal interview since working at the Purple Turtle. And during my interviews they just tell me that I have the job, there is never any suspense. Because of the lack of formality I've experienced in obtaining jobs I have no trust in attaining "interview skills" or writing a "professional resume". Is that crazy? I just don't think it matters. Do people really get hired because they have a good firm hand shake, and maintain good eye contact? I don't know, it seems weird to me.

Needless to say, I got hired on Horrocks Engineering and start on Monday. I'll be working there about 25 hours a week. And I'll work at Kohlers at night.

Oh, but there is also a part of me that is really sad to leave Provo. I really like the house that I live in and my bedroom, and I love p-town bike rides. And just recently I have discovered two things about Provo that I didn't know about before, and I thought I had Provo figured out!

The first is the running trails up above seven peaks. I think they are wonderful! And I wish I had known about them sooner because they give you such a beautiful view of Provo, I may drive down just to go on a few runs there.

The second is the Food and Care Coalition! This week I volunteered there with Lily and Lindsay... and I loved it! I have always known that place existed, but I never knew where it was. And it was so fun serving those people and making the trays of food. I even ran into a Romanian woman who was shocked that I could speak her language. And after only 25 hours of service they give you a free apron. Frick! Why did I just find out about this 2 days ago???? I have been living in Provo for almost 3 years!! I could have earned a bazillion aprons!

Oh well. I'll be back. I won't be able to stay away for long... especially when McDoodle gets back to ta-ooooooooowwwn. She may even love Provo more than me, this is a quote from her most recent email:
last night i had a dream i went home and i was so mad casue i wanted to go explore provo, but you wouldn't take me and i didn't have a car and i was all "Whitney please! i haven't seen provo forever" and you still wouldn't take me. . .

Golly, I miss McKay... she is fabulous to the tenth power.

I love sun bathing.

I hope that these blue skies are here to stay! I just love sunshine, lately I have been craving it. My skin just wants it! The weather this afternoon is gorgeous, and the tulips along center street are glorious.

Work was frustrating today. I guess it is good to get yourself thinking and frustrated every once in a while. The sun is helping my knot I received in my stomach from work to loosen and to relax.

The sun just makes everything better. Right now I am so in love with people, I just love them. I love knowing people. I love not having a phone and only communicating with people I run into. The weird thing is that I feel MORE connected to people without my phone. I feel like I have to make time for people more. And when I see people I know I talk to them longer face to face. Perhaps I won't fix my phone.

I freaking love my roommate Lindsay Esplin. And the good Lord has called her to serve in China... how amazing.

gmail paper

I swear this will be the last blog I do about google for a bit. I just love them so much... I thought this was the funniest thing ever: gmail paper
be sure to click the learn more button and read the testimonials.

I especially enjoyed the "keep it secret, keep it safe" comment that they made on it. Those words are taken straight out of Lord of the Rings from Gandolf the wizard (proof that nerds and geeks are what is keeping google going). I know this because that is what Aunt Donna quoted when she gave us the phone number to Mary's apartment on Christmas day. Frick, I love the Wollenziens!

papi

I'm just glad the little babies aren't going to hell anymore.

limbo

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Oh my goodness, I love google. Happy Earth Day!

snow again!

this weather will be the death of me!

If I didn't have this Mos Def ticket I would drive clear into southern utah right now, and not come back till may.

dr@ft1ng

I sometimes really love drafting. and I really love working at Kohlers. I think this summer is going to be just lovely.

I was walking down some of the stairs outside on campus the other day and was reminded of how cold and wet winter was. I remember how slushy those stairs used to be, and how the bottoms of my pants were always wet. I used to love the winter, but at that moment, walking down those stairs, I never wanted to see another winter day again. I think I would love living in the desert.

I went out to lunch the other day with a senior couple that I had served with in Romania. And we talked and talked for almost 3 hours at Red Robin. And I missed Romania so very much. I was thinking of how much I loved the summers over there. They are so green, lush, humid, and hot... A lot of memories are very sweaty... my forehead was always perspiring, and my forearms would even sweat, but I loved the feeling. I'm not sure why, it sounds gross now. But man, I love the summer. I can't wait for this crappy Spring to be over. I hate the Spring.... more than I hate Winter.

This the hierarchy of seasons in my world:
Fall
Summer
Winter
Spring

google!

I just love those cute little google icons and how they change every so often. Today the google has these cute little aliens and space scene. Now I love space, so of course I was curious as to why they had this icon today.
I learned that Yuri Gagarin was the first man into space. His rocket launched on April 12th, 1961. How wonderful that I know that now. Thank you google!

the HP 100 day challenge!

I have just been informed about this and I have never been one to turn down a challenge...

It is a hundred days to the Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows... the challenge is to read all the Harry Potter books before then.

Some help:
You'll need to read 33.41 pages per day (using the pagination of American hardcover editions) in order to finish on time, if you start today. (Late starters are welcome!)

Here's a few other milestones:

• Saturday, April 21 - Finish Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone and start reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
  
• Tuesday, May 1 - Finish Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets and start reading Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
  
• Monday, May 14 - Finish Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and start reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
  
• Tuesday, June 5 - Finish Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and start reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
  
• Sunday, July 1 - Finish Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and start reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
  
• Friday, July 20 - Finish Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince and hang out at the bookstore until midnight
  
• Saturday, July 21 - Buy Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows and start reading like mad!

This is the best challenge that has ever been issued!

more lyrics

now it’s all bad education
feeling fine, I’m feeling patient
girls and boys and full frustration
st. valentine, I think I taste it
tugging at the seatbelt
I’m jumping out the saddle
I’m shuffling my feet around
I’m kneeling at the steeple
when will my heart teeter, tatter?
I‘m a believer, I’m solid matter.

I like these lyrics.

when they found him,
dressed all in corduroy,
he had drowned in the river down the way
they laid his body down in a churchyard,
but still when the moon is out,
with his pushcart,
he calls down the day

time

I have read 3 books this week, and this afternoon started a 4th. You'd think that I have given up a lot of my time to accomplish all this reading... but surprisingly I still have been getting a lot of other things done as well. I wrote my brother a 3 paged letter, vacuumed out and washed my car, had the oil changed, moved a pile of cinder blocks from one end to the other in my backyard, worked out, hand lunch with my dad, went to work, went to class, and did homework.
See? Proof that we all can squeeze more time in for reading.
Actually I think this is just proof that I haven't utilized all the minutes in my day very well until now.

I can do it

To see a really cool trick, you need to click on this picture and see what happens.

hot chip

I am very ready for the spring to be here. I went out to my car at the school tonight and there was ice on my wind shields. I thought I was done with scraping ice.

I feel like I talk about music in this blog, but I can't help it! I just think about music a lot, it is always exciting and new to me. Right now I am really digging this hot chip music video, and hot chip just in general.

After our competition tonight we went out to eat at Applebees (my first time applebees adventure) and I got the fish plate. I can't remember what sort of fish it was, I know it wasn't salmon. But anyways, it was really good and I still so very satisfied and comfortable. I have been loving fish lately, it doesn't make you too full, you still feel light and satisfied after. I think that is why I love going out to eat at the Osaka so much, the food is light and makes your stomach happy.

I just like asain food, and having been craving an unusual amount of rice lately... even though I don't take the time to cook it, I still want it. Speaking of asain stuff I started the book "A Single Shard" today. And I am loving it. I am going to go read it right now... the house is so quite tonight, Emily and Kaylene are gone, and it is so cold outside... it is the perfect situation to curl up and read a book...
(after trying to beat mahjongg, of course)

registering

This morning as I was waking up I was having the oddest dream. Amanda and I were meeting up at the Steel Days Carnival and going on all of our favorite rides, and I remember during the dream it just felt so good to get away and be with Amanda and not think about my rotten marriage and horrible husband. (I'd just like to inform the reader now that I am actually not married and am quite single) So the dream was pretty creepy.
And when I woke up Emily came home and invited me to go and register with her at Bed Bath and Beyond. It was all fine and dandy, picking out her iron (man, I would love a nice iron), bowls, towels, and stuff... pondering how fun it will be to be doing this for myself one day... and all of a sudden from the way high shelves of the store.. two giant boxes fell and landed right on top of me. It was the oddest thing in the whole world. My arm hurt right after, and has a little scrape on it, and right now my head hurts. How freaky!
Could these two weird events in my day be at all related?